I realized today that I haven't updated my blogger with photos in such a long time.
& the sad part is that I made this blog for my photography not for me to just ramble that's what my lj is for is it not?
SO from now on this blog is to be purely for my photography adventures and if you want the life stuff go to my lj.
www.livejournal.com/1dramaticdancer

Where do I start with all this photo madness then?
I think I will start from where I am now and then work back to the begining of my non posting days in july.
so...
We start with my most recent: self portrait series.

word play. all day long.

Ever since I dipped my toes back into the pool of writing, my head has been spinning with word play. Thinking constant on what I could say how to make my life flow out into a pool, a pool of words sought after as a masterpiece.
I'm not sure where to start with it all, but I think if I take my time it will sort itself out and become what I want it to be.

until then. I'll just let these words bubble underneath my skin.
It should be ready for a run tonight, but we shall see.

-Jess

Searching for my resolution.

A girl once told me I'd be searching, searching for my own resolution. Maybe not for the same thing that I am now searching for, but I search for it ever more.
I used to write in words, words that expressed my every whim, flowing from my hands to the page. It was like milk and honey. Sweet but still stubborn.
I search for that now, and for how my mind used to be; at ease for it could rest on wishful thoughts other than this harsh reality. I've taken a break it's true, but I find my self stumbling onto the path I knew I would always follow. I wasn't meant for the crowds and the norm of every other girl. I don't belong & I my heart knows that. This defying of my own freedom rings loud for all to hear, letting even those who call for me to be another face in this crowd of nowhereness know, that I will not bow down to the abnormal of me.
Inspiration has hit me, don't stop me now.
I leave with just a few words, but hope for a tomorrow filled with more.
-Jess *

Strange & Beautiful.

I think that would be the title of my life if it was a book.
In so many ways it would fit me, and just feels right.

It's been a crazy first month out on my own, I have never felt so on my own than I do now, but I have never had such amazing friends and experiances than what I do now.
I have fallin in love a little. Made some stable friends that I love dearly. Figured what things about myself I dislike and what I need to do to change those things.
At the moment, I'm in the process of redefining myself, my whole self. The way I am. Who I am.
I want to be thin.
Have my own Artistic flare and want to do art.
Be a book worm
Be flirtatous
Powerful
Strong
and so so much more
I need to go now, but I will continue this post later.
peace.love.jess.

Jess needs your help!!!

Alright Jessica needs help, she has a hair appointment in the morning and doesn't know what hair color to pick so here are the options, look at them all and pick the one you think will look best on Jess.
Or if you have a better idea of what you want to see on her head just leave a comment! Thanks so much guys, you're the best!
-jess

1.http://www.mary-kateandashley.com/photos/index.php?id=29

2.http://www.flickr.com/photos/umbrellasinsnow/2293470412/
minus all the pink strips, if I did do the strip thing at the bottom I think I would just do one red strip. what do you think?

3 http://images.movieeye.com/store/images/mary-kate-and-ashley-olsen-celebrity-photo-a.jpg
mary kates style the redish/brownish/blond

4. http://images.teamsugar.com/files/users/0/88/47_2007/6owq99i.preview

the unknown of now and later.

Swim. Swim deep into the sea of thoughts.

My life has been a constant wirlwind of emotions and events. I have been working hard to do my best and to find the best within me, but have still a mile or more to go.
I go off to college in a week and a half, and I can not believe that I will soon be pushed out of the nest to let my wings spread to make me grow stronger, even if it is with a shock of falling at first.
Art still is my life, and always will be I fear, but devote myself to this fear of the unknown possiblities my life holds. I have so much to learn, but will I be ready to take it on and become a better me?
I know I will make myself, I don't want anything but success in my life and understand I must have failure first to succed, but I don't want to throw anything I've been given away.

I'm in the process of making seviral items. In the process of working on new photos and finding new concepts with them.
I will post as soon as I can with pictures, but for now my projects call me.


lovealways.
peace.love.jess.xoxo.

postnote: talk about coal umbrella next time.
don't let me forget ;P

Artist in the [HOUSE]

I finally got off my lazy butt today and started creating again. It's been awhile since I just let myself do what my heart has been longing to do, with work and home chores and what not I just feel so worn down that I don't want to get up and do anything when I have time. I just want to sit. listen to music. & sleep. Be as unproductful as I possibly can be. Anywho, my sister is in las vegas right now and won't be home until sat. afternoon.
We repainted her room, got all new stuff for her room and now I have decided that I needed to make a few things for her new room. :]
I won't say what I've been up to just yet, I want it to be a surprise post with fully finished product pictures and what not. I am so excited! lol.
&&
Also today I started working with the most amazing floriest ever. My aunt! She has the most amazing flowers ever and she wanted me to come and help put together stuff and be the photographer for all her stuff. Best part other than getting to help her out and learn a whole bunch of new tricks is..
That it will offically be my first comisioned photo shoot. Not really my normal type of photo shoot, but non the less a comisioned photo shoot. My first real taste into the real paying world of photography.
Although photography was never about the money, but more so the art.. but if I want to make a living by doing what I love most then this is a good way to start!
I will be updating with pictures asap and pictures of my finished products!
I'm tired though and need to cont. working on stuff, so until then.
peace. ciao. and whatever else normal people sign off with.
g'night.